State of Confusion

Ok, This is my first blog in quite some time. I am sitting here and have been up for four hours already and its only 9:30am. I just registered for my Tumblr account, along with a new one called Unthink.com. I am tired of Facebook honestly. I need a new outlet in order to find new friends. Like a social networking site hangout of sorts. There is fubar yes, but kinda like the old yahoo chat rooms I guess. Where you could pick and choose the rooms that interested you and enter. Not that I'm looking to hook up or anything, i'm too old and have no interest, as my woman keeps me plenty busy, lol.

I have just recently quit my internet radio show after 5 years. There are things about it I will miss, like the followers I created and friends I have made from it. I created this great persona which is actually just me with a different name. Redlar, pronounced as "Red-ler", became a great AntiChrist and ruler of a nation that started a religion and a way of thinking unlike most out there. I actually had quite a large audience at one time, and I will miss that. My core listeners have become friends over the years and I value that. Everything I thought, felt, or said was really how I felt. I said it how I meant it. I was not politically correct in anyway. I hope that is what attracted people to my show.

A plus for not doing my show anymore is the fact I get more time with 2 of my children. My almost 18 y/o, is no longer the quiet one who is no longer reserved. Living with me for the past 18 months has broke her from the shell she acquired while living with her mother for so long as her mother was always that way. The other is my 9 y/o son, who is the apple of my eye. He is turning out to grow up just like me. I love every second of it. He and I play games alot and used to wrestle. If he could now get into sports also, it would be perfect. Otherwise I will take the smartass little computer gaming geek that he is. The "black sheep" of my family is my middle child of 15. She has had many issues the past 3 years as it pertains to her mother/step-dad, her grandparents on that side and me. I have done everything in my power to try to make things right with her but she insists on doing things not as I wish for her. The major contributors to this are her mother who is in favor of this behavior for some reason as she claims to be religous and christian.

As I sit here, my ass is growing numb from typing for the past 3 hours. I don't have any real plans for the day. Supposed to change plugs and wires on the jeep, and seal the roof, but not sure if that will happen cuz I have no mechanical skills.

So yes, This is PART of the state of confusion I'm currently in. I will TRY my best to keep a more regular posting schedule.